I am currently flying over a wonderful sea of clouds so fluffy I already tried to capture the airiness.

I am also scrolling through the photos of my last year which was so much better (that's the feeling now at least) than this year. I found some pictures of books (and online written wonders) I rented from the library and want to share with you the parts I collected here as an fair use extract:

the extracts

25.01.2025 How to disappear is the title I think which was hosted for me on seapunk.xyz it is a very old internet document still being hosted today. I didn't like the paranoia it created inside of me but when I need to run I will come back to it. Anyways at the end it said this:" Be observant of items being rearranged or moved, too. Until you're secure in your new location, you might take the precaution of placing hairs on door jambs, threads across the threshhold, matches on tops of doors. When choosing locks and keys, select those not readily available in the area. X-ニーニーニーニーニーニーニーニーニーニーニーニー✕ Another file downloaded from:

NIRVANAnet (tm) & the Temple of the Screaming Electron Jeff Hunter 510-935-5845

The Salted Slug Strange 408-454-9368

Burn This Flag Zardoz 408-363-9766

realitycheck Poindexter Fortran 510-527-1662

Lies Unlimited Mick Freen 415-583-4102

Tomorrow's Order of Magnitude Finger_Man 415-961-9315

My Dog Bit Jesus Suzanne D'Fault 510-658-8078

New Dork Sublime Demented Pimiento 415-566-0126

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05.08.2024 "How can I trust what anybody else stands for if I don't know what I myself am about? It's true that if people generally approve of what I'm saying, it is easier to believe that what I'm saying has worth. But when they stop approving, where will that leave me? Unable to ascertain whether or not what I have to say has any validity? I have to get a sense of my motives beyond the blinkered duality of approval or disapproval. It doesn't define me. I was born fallible and I'll die fallible, just like everyone else, no matter how much goes right or wrong in my life. Problem is, I left my creative compass to rust while I navigated life by other people's standards, and now, when I really need it, it's stuck and I don't know which way to go."

In the same book "The focus on what I can successfully gen-crate, on what I can monetize, on what I can contrib-ute, is a systemic imprint that enforces a production/ consumption mentality and keeps me in the thrall of needing to work to consume to value myself. If I can produce goods or services that can be exploited in order to maximise profit, I am valuable. If I can't produce goods or services that can be exploited for profit, I remain un-valuable. If I am the primary carer for my children, I have to labour at home all day in order to keep the home functioning and the children safe and well. My working hours are hard and long. But this labour is unmonetised and cannot be exploited for profit so it's not valued in society. If I am the primary earner in the same household, if 1 am the one who goes out to work, my experiences are valuable because my earning power means 1 am able to consume; that's what makes me important; my desires are encouraged in order to be catered for, in order to be met."

Also from the same book: "But it will never be right. There is no way that a writer cannot injure that idea as they wrestle with it. By the time it has revealed itself to be finished, when the deadline can't be put off any longer, the exhausted writer has learned another lesson about their own restrictions that they promise themselves they will overcome next time. But next time comes, and they are faced with new restrictions, new limitations, new impossibilities. 'Finishing' work, is what gives the artist the humility necessary to begin again. Many, many people have ideas. But to go through the agony of finishing that idea, realising you are so ill-equipped that, despite your burning conviction, your deep creativity, your relentless practice and your natural talent, you have still failed. You made a good go of it. The thing is out there, another step towards mean-ing. Next time, maybe you'll do it better. Or maybe you'll never do it again."

13.06.2024 translated maybe Jenny Odell's Book about Time ~"Self care books are fine and good at their part. Self Care promises at its core to revelotionaze your life. Not the social or economic hierarchy but your life. And no author is responsible for a promise they didn't make. But at the same time even practice self help can be understood as Invitation to find a niche in this very brutal world and to wait until the storm has passed."

24.07 definitely the book by Jenny Odell about time but the citation is out of processed world from Gidgit Digit: "The individual "liberties" which are the wonder of teleshopping and home backing are just illusions. Mostly they are commodities that make and more efficient modern life possible. The real basis of the social life will not be touched by these so called revolution. Just like in the office it's still a hierarchy. Actually the power that control is strengthened because of the illusion of liberty. The citizen of this electric village will be given a personal user ID with total autonomy but will be locked out/restricted from changing the source code of the Operating System." - "Fred Motens Concept of studying, Oli mounds creativity and Gidgit Digit reprogramming all have in common the wish not be restricted and to not support by the hierarchy forms of the markets or institutions..." - "As Carole McGranahan writes refusal means saying no. But no, that isnt all. To refuse can be a productive and strategical, it can be a conscious step towards a thing, belief, practice or community or away from it. "

23.04.2024 "after doing creative work: Take a walk, drive, bus, train, or subway ride without a destination in mind. Eat without doing anything else simultaneously-notice what sensations your body gets from the food you're putting in your body. Chew slowly. Find a quiet place to sit alone and listen to natural sounds. Take three of the deepest breaths you've taken all day. For years I filled every quiet moment with noise. Now, it's the opposite. I look forward to moments of silence and tend to think/work best with ambient or instrumental music, especially when writing."

Dense Discovery is a blog but I still made a screenshot on 05.12.2023 "An activity worth doing: Create a list of activities and values (max 12) that make you feel content and part of a healthy humanity. Essentially, what does a good week look like to you? It might be photographing, making food, participating in community events, writing to friends or having kind boundaries. Rate your success for engaging with each and use it as a reflection for making changes (when we have this privilege)."

In the creative independent interview with Maisie Broom she said: "What advice would you give to other artists on how to have more joy in their lives? I think I would say, make a list of things that make you happy and prioritize those. Try to make time to prioritize them. If you feel nourished by going into nature, try to make time to do that once a week or once a month. And be kind to yourself. And find time to play. And nourish your inner creative child, because I think that's where the source is for all of us. If that child is being ne-glected, then it's harder to access joy. So, play."

02.09.2021 "If we ever leave the planet, let us do so not to escape a worn-out, used-up, ruined environment but as a positive move prompted by power, curiosity and a need to tell the human story in new places."

29.08.2021 ":marketing wasn't your calling then? :creative communication: I correct him. :won't lie I never really knew what that meant : it.... : I prepare myself to launch into an explanation then I realize I may never need to again: it doesn't matter anymore :"

11.07.2021 "At its core every literary expression (and I count Comics to it) can result in four emotional states. It can:

1. diffuse
2. educate
3. be persuasive
4. impress I am most intrigued by the ones that can combine all four."- "as a teacher there are two types of stories you see everyday. There is the one where the writer twist everything in the end to finally make sense and there is the story where you know at the second page how it will end. I will not cater to these stories as it shows a lack of talent. Everything else we can learn through experience and overcome."

Ps:I got no idea from which book they are from now...sry